mind your comeback

I started this blog in November 2019, I’m writing this in November 2020. I took an 8-month break from a blog and business that I had only started 4 months prior. Throughout 2019 I was helping my mom go through Stage 4 cancer, preparing to buy our first home and everyday stressors. My intentions of taking this picture were to show myself later just how exactly it looks to be riddled with anxiety and depression during my attempts to remedy it. Its main purpose is a motivation to not let myself get to this point again. This particular day in March, I had an anxiety attack at work after getting back from taking my mom to an appointment. We fought at the doctor’s office and it was wildly unnecessary on my part. When I got to work, my team was experiencing their own anxieties. I had shoved my hands so deep into my jean pockets that I bruised my hands. The following day, I moved into my new house and simultaneously went into lockdown. I was excited to “get things done” and made my to-do lists. I just knew this was the time that I would get my blog fully on its way, but honestly, I did not open this website once until today. After a couple of months of starting projects, abandoning them, and starting new ones I had to stop myself. Complete stop. The goal now…do nothing. And that is all I’ve done. Y'all, I’ve watched so much trash tv, I don’t even like reality TV. I’ve read a lot of books (check out that 2020 book challenge).

All in all, my mental health is better than it has been…ever. I needed to check out and I am thankful I allowed myself to check out mentally from the world. I’m ready to come back, rebrand this blog into what it should have been, and get started. Remember, it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to check out from the world to get back to yourself. This is something I want to keep sharing with you. Mental health is important to me. For me to be my most genuine self, I have to share the ugly and the beautiful with you so stay tuned.

And with that, welcome to the new Mind Your B’s and Q’s. The genuine, sarcastic rant-fest I promised you originally.

much love,

B